Busy, Busy

So already we are into week 8 of camp which means ive only been away for 11 weeks! It is hectic here! the underprivledged camps started in week 6 and it was so lovely to see some of the kids I worked with the last time I was here, their warmth continues to amaze me. Jane, one of the young girls from the last time i was here, ran to greet me., Tanner was disgusted with me for all of 3 seconds because I forgot his name and his Brother.... he's a special guy...I could just keep him! I think I should be humbled more by these experience's. I was so sad that my schedule did not allow me to hang out with them as much as i would have like to and it is hard not doing the job I did when I was last here as then I had all the time to hang out! It was my job to cordinate them and their activities and set up program for them etc etc. Oh well The times I got to say hi, they continued to bless me.

It is hectic here and in the midst of it all the girls and I in my cabin have had to go through a bit of an upsettting time with one of our cabin mates, for the week 5 and 6 we really did not get any sleep, so things that happened in week 7 meant we were to get the sleep we need! however week eight is here and I am still not sleeping! until last night!! We had a leadership meeting at 10.45pm last night and after that I came back to the cabin, said night to the girls and slept! yippee! hopefully thats me! kariss and I went out for dinner last night and she was questioning my ability to drive home!!! I got us back safely! I was bad, you know when you dont sleep everthing kinda does not seem real! thats what i've been like the past 3 weeks! and to top it all off i've been getting sick again! even though all my scans and everything has came back as being clear, im still getting sick!!

In saying all this however, i would not change my time here at all, I love it, This place is special, mystical even, the times ive been lying awake God has blessed me so much, he has given me words of encouragement for others, for this place, Big Death Johnny is always pleased when that happens! My time here has been such a gift, I love it, love it, love it, only thing I dont like about being here is that it is too hummid to run!!! and heck no I am not a get up at 5am kinda girl to go for a run - no way!! I am so sad that in a few weeks im leaving, But gotta go back to school and finish what I've started! It's funny how God works the last time I was here when My contract finished all the weird stuff happened and things fell through and even though I did not have anything to go home to I had to go home, now this time... there is a full time job here for me in the city with muskoka woods that Jim (Jimmy Lat's My Boss!!!) at the start of the summer asked would I maybe consider applying and staying for, Rachel is coming over for the fall I coulda stayed up here with her and worked outdoor rec, however I know I need to finish what i started and go back to uni when I get home, funny eh, when i have somthing to do I get all this temptation to stay, but I believe God asked me to do the degree I am doing so I am being very stubborn and not even considering these things, not praying about it or anything, I believe that sometimes God Just makes things clear anyway and sometimes you don't need to pray about things, its like when people say "oh we're gonna pray if we should date" what the... to me that screams...dont date then, if you need to pray about it, if its right God will honor that, if not then he won't and all the prayere in the world is not gonna make a difference, yea, pray when you are dating, when your married but God is not the kinda God to be boxed in to make us feel better on how we make choices, I know I am not supposed to stay, I truly believe God asked me to do my degree so why pray about something that is not in his will for my life right now, does this make sence or do i still have a lot of sleep to catch up on? I just don't want to mock God by praying about somthing I know he has spoke to me about. anyways... for now i will go, spk soon!